Thankfully I only have 9 days until Christmas break. I would say I'm hanging in there, but I'm really not. Everyday is a struggle. I actually called in sick one day this week because I'm just so physically & mentally exhausted, along with the fact that I am completely unmotivated. I have no spark in me, no drive, no ambition. Being a teacher has definitely become "just a job" to me. Sad, but true. I hate that it came to this point. The only reason I make myself go to work everyday is because I have to get a paycheck.
I'm still sending out resumes. I had a few close calls, but nothing definite yet. I applied to a job of a lifetime at a very large greenhouse. The salary would double what I earn now and I would be working in an industry that I realize is truly my passion. I called them to make sure they received my resume and they said they planned to call me in the near future to set up an interview. I pray everyday and keep my fingers crossed that they'll call me soon.
Until then, I will continue to do what the public school system has trained me to do best - be a classroom manager. I really just supervise kids everyday. It's a little more than babysitting, but really, most of my time is spent testing the kids and then analyzing how they performed on the test.
